History would keep repeating itself. I would go to some Sunday morning meetings out of guilt, after failing to think up a good excuse not to go. When I would force myself to go, I would sit in the back and leave as soon as the meeting was over. I would go to the Memorial each year and feel awkward. I'd cry a lot and ask Jehovah to help me to be a better JW. Periodically, I would hope to be hit by a truck just to make all the turmoil go away and maybe I'd make it into the New Order. I would remain in this hamster wheel for the duration.
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Where do you think you would be now?
by brinjen injust a thought, wondering where does everyone think they would be right now if they hadn't found the truth?
i mean the real truth, not the wts.
would you be single?
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Partaking at the Memorial
by 38 Years ini know you're sick of stories about the memorial, but you have to see this.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccote1skw8a.
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Please accept my apologies. I did not mean to offend anyone.
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Friends
by clarrie inhi all.
i am wondering if a witness is supposed to have friends within the kingdom hall circle only and if it is frowned upon to be friendly with a churchgoer (methodist) .
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Junction is right. "Bad association spoil useful habits", is etched on every dubs mind. However, I alway walked on the edge with what I called "associates", (not friends) at work. So some dubs will ignore the GB's advice and have some superficial friendships, but don't ask them to admit it!
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My Story
by 38 Years inhere's my story.
i tried to shorten it as much as possible.. my family belonged to a baptist church and i was baptized in that church when i was 8 years old.
i sincerely believed in jesus and the bible then and still do now.
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Crumpet,
My degree is in Health Science but now I work in Marketing. Go figure. I wasn't a great high school student (the 1975 thing was a great excuse to use). After high school I worked my way up from Burger King, bank teller, then secretary. In college, I didn't know what I wanted to do either, but I do know that that piece of paper opened up a lot more job interviews and job offers. I knew it would no matter what my major was. I'm still not career minded, but now I have a job I love with a comfortable modest salary. I can support myself and my son without fear of going back to minimum wage and low wages. Hope this helps.
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My Story
by Missanna inok for some reason i can't sleep tonight and feel like writing so i'm gonna tell my story of how i got to this point.
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ahhhhm.
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Missanna,
I think finding therapy is a good idea too. Remember, when you went before, you were in the dubs and with your parents. People and doctors treat you different when you are a dub. They can be cautious about saying things because they don’t want to offend. Also, your position about life and yourself has changed, so you will be more open and comfortable talking about what you have been through. Your mind is free and open, there are no restrictions anymore to how you choose to absorb the help you’ll receive. I talked to a therapist too when I first left and got a lot of support from friends. My therapist said he was enlightened when I told him things about being a dub. He had quite a few witness patients and never knew the details I told him. You got a lot of strength, you should be proud of yourself.
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Partaking at the Memorial
by 38 Years ini know you're sick of stories about the memorial, but you have to see this.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccote1skw8a.
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I know you're sick of stories about the memorial, but you have to see this. (Not sure if anyone posted this yet):
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Latest news of my Husband Marco (heart surgery)
by orangefatcat inso dear friends here is the latest news about hubby's heart by- pass.. the doctor spoke with us both this evening and marco will have the surgery in a week and a half.. he is holding his own and the doctor hopes he won't have another heart attack before surgery.. there are many people that are involved with a heart team.
and so that is why we have to wait to get organized in everry way.
marco is still weak and is constantly tired.
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My thoughts and prayers are with you both.
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My Story
by Missanna inok for some reason i can't sleep tonight and feel like writing so i'm gonna tell my story of how i got to this point.
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ahhhhm.
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Thanks for your story. I am so sorry you went through so much. You're right, elders won't help when your parents don't follow the rules. You are left to survive on your own. I tried and failed myself with my father's behavior. I was lucky that my father quit and the elders stopped defending him. You will get a lot of support on this Board. Congratulations on you wedding! Your husband and friends will help give you support and strength. Love your avatar! Take care.
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The Great Tribulation is picking up speed!!!!!!!!!!!!
by unbaptized inthe tribulation is really starting to speed up it's pace.
i just read that atleast 3 types of animal and plant life go extinct every hour.
global warming threatens the entire planet, crimes against women and children are at a all time high, honeybees dying off for unexplained reasons, the threat of nuclear war, the ravage of infectious disease.
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I hope it comes before I go to work tomorrow
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3RD WITNESS RAMBLINGS
by whereami inmany believe that defending the jehovah's witnesses or praising it for the accomplishments of the organization is idolizing the wt.
but aren't we really praising jehovah when we praise what the organization has accomplished.
perhaps someone does not follow their praise of the organization by saying how jehovah deserves the credit but no doubt many understand that that is to be assumed.
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Whereami, I'd respond to your comments but I don't want to help you count your time. Btw, are you supposed to be counting your time by arguing with people who quit the organization?